CAUGHT IN THE WEB

EPISODE 1

WRITTEN BY: EUNICE ISEOLUWA OYEKUNLE

 

Oops! I have done it again. I have been battling with this so- called Demon for the past twenty years of my life.

 

Why am I still entangled with it? Why has it hung on to me like a Bird who will never let go of its nest?

 

How could I place the fact that a whole me, a tutor in the word of God, a well -read scholar when it comes to the bible still battles with this deadly sin?

 

What is this deadly sin that has held me down? It is pornography. I am a porn addict. I shouldn’t have entered into the Devil’s trap in the first place.

 

When I was in Secondary School, I was in a circle of friends who were exposed to watching porn videos. They watched those videos happily while my innocent mind watches them in amusement.

 

Just like an adage says, ‘’Curiosity kills the cat’’. I was so curious to know what gave my friends joy whenever they watched porn videos. Behold! I was exposed to the world of pornography. Yes! Porn is indeed a world on its own.

 

My mind was fixed on watching porn videos and it had become my hobby. I never saw what was wrong in it.

 

Two years after I was caught in the web of pornography, my maternal aunty came, to invite us to a crusade which promised to be a life- changing one.

 

I was ready to change. At my young age of seventeen, I felt polluted and dirty. My parents named me Radiance but all I radiate is filthiness and dirt.

 

At my early age of five, I was defiled. I couldn’t remember who raped me but all I can remember was that the person wore a red mask which made it impossible for me to recognize the man.

 

During my secondary school days, I was unduly influenced by peer pressures. Due to the fact that my friends had boyfriends, I saw it as a normal thing to have one. I changed boyfriends like they were diapers.

 

Those guys touched the ’’untouchables’’. They fumbled with different parts of my body anyhow. I could no longer concentrate on my studies anymore which led to my drastic failure.

 

My parents who were unbelievers didn’t give a damn about me. Their lives were so Precious than that of their daughter. I called them ‘’unbelievers’’ because my Dad was a Drunkard. He drinks alcohol and even snuffed cocaine. Mum, on the other hand was a flirt. She goes out with different men every time.

 

I was so downcast. My life was such a mess. I had nobody to counsel or advise me. My teachers insulted me and heaped abuses on me. One of my teachers, Mr Adeigbe was so mean to me. He treated me like I was a shit and there was no day that would pass that he would not flog me.

 

With everything turning upside down for me, I knew that all I needed was God.

 

My parents and I excitedly followed my Aunty to the crusade ground. Immediately I stepped into the auditorium, I could sense the movement of the Holy Spirit all over the place.

 

My spirit was uplifted and I felt supernatural calmness filled my heart. I was very happy that I was in the right place at that time.

 

There were over fifty people seated in the congregation if I am not mistaken. There were also few spaces that were emptied. Half of the people were women.

 

The Crusade which was set to start by 5pm had already started with praise and worship. I felt the Holy Spirit near me. My eyes firmly shut that I was not even conscious about what was happening around me. Not even Dad, Mum or Aunty Betty.

 

During the praise and worship session, most people had already fallen under the anointing of the Holy spirit. Some were rolling on the floor speaking in diverse tongues.

 

Oh my God! It was indeed a powerful experience.

 

Since I didn’t know most of those songs, my eyes were firmly shut while I chewed my tongue. I unconsciously looked at my parents. I was happy to see that they were also engrossed in the spirit.

 

I was so happy! Tables were indeed turning for my family.

 

During the prayer session, the pastor in charge mentioned the fact that Dad was a drunkard while mum was an adulterer. He also mentioned the fact that I was a porn addict. He mentioned other people’s problem as well.

 

My eyes were firmly shut when the pastor walked up to me. He laid his hand on my forehead and I felt something moved within me. Something was burning within me.

 

I did not when I screamed and fell to the floor, speaking in unknown tongues.

 

The last thing I could remember was when the grace was shared. I felt the hand of God. I knew that with the experience that my parents and I had at the crusade, our lives will no longer remain the same.

 

After the programme, my parents and I surrendered our lives to Jesus. Dad became an Usher in church. Mum, a prayer warrior while I signed up to be a teen’s coach. My reason was to mentor upcoming youths so that they will not fall into Devils cohorts.

 

We started attending Aunty Betty’s church- Christ revival church.

 

But, I was still struggling with sin. I thought that after the revival and also after I signed up for being a Teen’s coach, I was going to stop being an addict but, that wasn’t true.

 

The more I tried to refrain myself, the more I dug deep into it.

 

Dad’s life had transformed, he had stopped drinking . Mum had also cut every form of communications with her men- friends. People who knew my parents were even astonished.

 

‘’But, why am I different? Why has God not saved me from my own sin? Why am I still battling with pornography? Why is it that my name, Radiance is the opposite of what I really am?’’

 

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2 Replies to “CAUGHT IN THE WEB EPISODE 1”

    1. Hmmm. I thought as much. The devil was not happy with Radiance leaving so he decided to hook Radiance up. Nice work sis👍

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